What Would a Dead Mother Say to You?

My potential mother-in-laws died too soon to tell me everything they wanted me to know about their experiences being a mother, yet it was in their actions while they were living that I learned enough skills to share with my own children, but I learned a lot more after they had died. You see, I hadn’t married their sons, but I felt like I had become engaged to them in our conversations over the years to determine that these women had come to terms with their titles of mother despite not ever wanting to become mothers in the way that they did.

Two women who specifically come to mind had not conceived all their children in ways that society would have deemed appropriate particularly during a time when most women were raised “to act like a lady.” They had children out of wedlock, had been either physically or sexually abused, and had married men that didn’t get everyone’s blessing.

I could understand what it was like to be told, “You are pregnant…” during a time when money and the man in your life was acting strange about being a father. Based on both women’s circumstances, I’m sure they went through the same. I learned from these women that it isn’t walking around pretending to be happy with your mother role or in other words a “fake it until you make it” philosophy that sustains you through what some would call a blessing, and others would call a storm; rather, it is an honest to goodness boldness that heals you. I’m not thinking about the “tell-it-like-it –is” attitude, but I am thinking more like the “I made my bed, now I will fix it” mentality.

Childbirth and childrearing it is what it is. You did the deed now do what you can to survive for you and your child. My potential mother-in-laws could have aborted, but didn’t. They could have run away from home and cut off all ties from anyone who shamed them. They could have abandoned their children, but avoided the temptation to run away. They could have given them up for adoption, but chose not to. Somewhere within themselves, they found the strength to care for their children despite the challenges they faced while not being mad at God. You see, it took great maturity on both their parts not to play "the blame game."

Between these two women there were nine childbirths, and all of them were successful even when one of the births happened through an unfortunate circumstance, a relative sexually abused her and she became pregnant. This survivor of sexual abuse didn’t allow the abuse to cause her to want to disown a part of who she was, and that takes great courage! Some women if put in the same situation would have found the event to be insurmountable and would have most likely ridded themselves of the shame.

Although these mothers who once impacted my life are now deceased, the grave hasn't kept them from speaking. They have left alot of their life behind to help other mothers learn from their mistakes and so the following is what I believe these deceased mothers and others like them would say to those of us still alive.

A dead mother if she could rise from the dead would tell you to “live your life!” She would say, “Stop living for your children and start living for you!” Some mothers would be appalled by this statement, to that they would say, “What do you mean not live for my children?” You see, mothers weren’t put on this planet to live for anyone but themselves (remember you were a woman first,) but the role of mother was created to service her children -- not live for them. So to live for someone and to service someone is two very different things, but some mothers and others who don’t know any better, have confused the two. To live for someone means your very existence depends on them. If it wasn’t for that person you would die. So if a mother thinks that all she has is her children to live for, then she is in a sorry state of mind and seriously needs to seek help. But if she awakes each day, being grateful for being alive and knowing that she could go through each day making decisions that will make her a better person then she is living her life—she is living for herself. Because it’s what she does with her life that will make the difference in another’s life. If she isn’t living for herself then who is she living for and don’t say God, because even God will have to say, “Dear, you don’t know me that well, but thanks I’m flattered."

A dead mother would also cry out from the grave and tell you to "stop lying to yourself and acting like something you are not." You see, many mothers have gone to their graves with false impressions engraved in the minds of their children who thought they knew their mother well. The reality is that she created an image that she thought would best depict her whether she chose to make people think she was happy and bubbly or depressed and angry. Whatever image she painted, that is if she died of a sane mind, chances are no one really knew her while she was alive. Mothers like these are big liars! The sad part is their families may have said or done something that didn’t make them feel comfortable about revealing their true self which made them feel like they should lie. Why would anyone want to share their heart with anyone who would be so quick to condemn them? These mothers went to their graves with dark secrets and unfortunately they couldn’t trust their own children with the full details of their lives.

A dead mother would also advise, “Be true to yourself and those around you no matter who gets hurt if it will deliver you from the burdens that you carry.” So you say “…that is a pretty selfish thing to do, aren’t mothers supposed to protect their children?” Of course, but once children become adults they are responsible for how they choose to deal with the truth. No one ever said that the truth won’t hurt, but it will set you free! Look at all of the young people currently having identity crises as a result of a parent who chose not to tell the truth; rather, they just walked out of their children’s lives without explanation. Shall we think of other examples to validate why a child needs to know whatever truth is pertinent to his or her existence?

In addition, a dead mother would tell you that "life is far too short to keep making the same mistakes" that she and others have warned you about over and over again. What were the mistakes she made with you? What do you find yourself repeating in your own parenting?

Lastly, she would tell you, "Watch how you spend your time and money." What kind of time are you spending with your children? Are you taking the time to sincerely get to know your children or are you booking that time up with so many activities that every time you speak to your child you are in a rush? As for money, where are you investing it and how will your child benefit from it in the future? Are you learning from the past? Are you concerned about the present?

If a dead mother could return from the grave, she would be most concerned about the things that affect your well-being. You don’t need a psychic to tell you something you already know. “Take care of yourself. I love you. I wasn’t mad at you. I forgive you.” The regrets that her children walk around in this world holding in their heart concerning his or her mother, is just taking up space. If she could talk, she would say, “Let it go!” If you aren’t taking care of your mind, body, and children, then who is? She may be rolling over in her grave now, because she sees her mistakes are being repeated with you and she can’t do anything about it.

Written by Nicholl McGuire, For more writings by this writer Click Here