Denial About Abusing You and the Children - Emotional and Physical Abuse

They lie, those abusers (smh).  They swear up and down they love their families and they will do anything for them.  Well if that is so, why the impatience, frustration, anger outbursts, and attitude on a daily or weekly basis when questioned about disrespectful behaviors, asked to help with a task or meet the needs of a child, or other seemingly harmless requests?  Why do abusers say that threatening behavior never happened, that curse words were never exchanged, that one never, couldn't have, wouldn't have...ego is all-too-important it suffocates truth.

1.  Abusers are selfish.  They always look out for self first!
2.  Abusers lie, deny and cover-up their mean-spirited deeds.
3.  Abusers pretend to be faithful to God, claim to be good men/women, upstanding citizens, etc.
4.  Abusers are actors who know how to play the friendly and honest gentleman or woman when called upon or feel they might be exposed.
5.  Abusers believe they are smarter than most people.  That's why they don't believe they will ever get caught in their mischief.
6.  Abusers have either watched others be abused or been abused by a relative, family friend or stranger(s) so they feel totally comfortable with hurting other people.
7.  Abusers come in any shape, size, color, with any educational background, or economic status.  Stop convincing yourself, "Well he/she doesn't look like an abuser."
8.  Abusers will put children up to lying, covering up, hurting others, etc. when it suits them.
9.  Abusers have triggers, personality disorders, and other issues that require professional help.
10.  Abusers are exposed by God.  The demons within and around can't stand the Creator or the people who acknowledge Him.

These in-laws and buddies just don't know their abusive loved ones very well or do they?  Maybe they are in on the denial.  "My dear son would never raise a hand to you!"  Well, he did.  "My dear daughter is a freedom fighter for lesbians, she would never..." But she did.  Some of you have been in your marriages and partnerships long enough to know differently.  But it's your secret, safe with me.  We know better!

Abusive men and women who pride themselves on controlling others while falsely believing they never do wrong, will not admit to abuse unless there is a plea bargain after they have murdered someone.  During interrogation he or she will say, "I don't know...I wasn't there...I wasn't aware...I never...I love my partner too much..."  Don't believe it!  Please, don't believe it.  The abuse got a slow start in the early days exposing one's own controlling ways.  Back then, he or she was better at covering up one's fragilities, but as they and their relationships get older not so much  No one knew one could be capable of such things--not even the victim until abusive episodes happened!

Curse words flying out of one's mouth for seemingly small things is usually a sign there is more ahead.  Those curse words directed at everyone else other than you is a start.  You riding in the car or walking along side your partner during the early dating phase didn't think much of his or her negative attitude.  Then it was the anger that showed up soon after visiting family and friends and you asked, "What's wrong?" The response, "Nothing.  I'm okay..."  One child, two children, three or more later, the anger intensified didn't it?  Yelling, slamming things, shutting down...Mom was simply too busy to be bothered with that crazy man in the next room.  You see, you saw something like this when you were growing up.  It wasn't always so nice at home, now was it?  So it all comes back around full circle.  Now you understand why your abused loved one was very cautious when dealing with her crazy spouse and/or kin.

The abusive partner denies feelings, suppresses offenses, and then one day explodes!  In the early days you were shocked, but not anymore.  In the early days you dismissed what you saw, but not anymore.  He or she is crazy--something is wrong!  Some of you Moms requested or maybe even demanded couples counseling, anger management or substance addiction help but to no avail.  Not quite ready to leave yet, you scratch your head thinking, "What can I do?"  It's not your battle, the abuser is angry--even the bible warns to stay away from an angry man or woman.

Emotional abuse signs include: name-calling, put-downs, crass humor, silent treatment, ignoring, gas-lighting, denial, etc.  Physical abuse signs include: throwing things, punching, hitting, kicking, spitting, choking, etc.  The writing is on the wall along with the last time a partner threw or punched something, are you seeing the signs?  Get out while there is still time!

Nicholl McGuire is an author and inspirational speaker.  She recorded this message here on YouTube: Power and Control Wheel Safety Plan and Spiritual Uplift.  

When Mothers Cry About the Evolution of Their Once Favorite People

Something I didn't cover in the When Mothers Cry book, personal life changes among family and friends that were once so near and dear.  Mothers cry about their loved ones personal changes that impact their relationships with them.  From new marriages to new jobs and everything else in between, life changes will change your favorites!  Sooner or later the reality that people have emotionally and/or physically changed whether for good or evil, it is an experience that is painful to watch or listen to at times.

Just imagine your mother is no longer behaving in ways that you once were accustomed to.  Your children are no longer as sweet and innocent as they once were.  Old friends are busy with their lives and gradually stop calling or coming around.  Your spouse doesn't love and respect you in ways that he or she once did.  Yes, change is inevitable due to many factors and not all mothers cope with the subtle or bold changes that are occurring in their favorite people's lives rationally or mature.  Examples of life changes that may severely impact your loved ones in the short or long term that you may not have thought about and may also affect your relationship to them might include:

1) Appearance enhancement or surgery due to accident
2) Conversation no longer what it used to be due to controlling partner, busy work schedule...
3) Aging they are not coping with it well i.e. midlife crisis.
4) Illness some days are worst than others, they simply don't want to be bothered.
5) Personality Disorder may have been trauma induced or was there all along you just didn't notice.
6) New marriage that comes with it's share of struggles that they don't want to discuss.
7) Birth of new baby--need we say more? i.e. post-partum.
8) Relocation is expensive, time-consuming and most people don't offer to help in anyway other than to call and ask questions.
9) Grieving over the death of a loved one - no they don't want to call or come around for a time or forever.
10) Children leaving the home (empty nest).  It's tough to detach from children, they are coping.

When I noticed that I had a personality change to those who observed me it was after my first child.  I had family members and friends who talked about how I didn't call like I used to asking them about how they were.  I was "too busy" and "you don't stay on the phone..." they complained.  Yes, I was busy with my newborn and yes I had changed.  Bringing life into the world is a traumatic experience for many mothers and my brain just doesn't operate in the same way it once did prior to having no children and no man, thank you very much!  Yet, I wasn't ready for some changes that were happening with some of my favorite people.  I was shook to see relatives moving slower, hair getting grayer, and voices repeating the same story twice or more--what!?  I was shocked by a few sudden deaths, but then I wasn't, I had been prepared when I sat down long enough with my Creator to get some understanding.  However, I didn't anticipate that some people would grow so distant so fast, but they did.

What I have learned is to ride the waves of change.  After tears, fears, and much prayer, I couldn't keep thinking about what once was, I had to move pass the past and get on with my life.  No matter how much I wanted people, places and things to stay the same, they just weren't.  Some people had to mature, others had to work long hours, and like me, they had marriages and children to tend to.  I realized when you accept change it is much easier to live this life without personal expectations, worries and stresses placed on others.  They also are more likely to call and come around when they know that you are good with their evolution of change!  But when you are not, they mark you as toxic.

So be okay with someone else's personal journey of discovery dear Mother and know that someone was good with yours otherwise you wouldn't be who you are today!

Nicholl McGuire is the blog owner and author of a variety of helpful journals to help keep your thoughts organized the old school way: pen and paper.  See here.

How to spot the signs of sex trafficking

1) Constant runaway episodes.  Upon return new clothing, numbered tattoos (barcodes), jewelry, etc.

2) Disinterested in what they normally liked doing.

- School grades dropped.

- Involved in sports and now they are uninterested.

Any change in behavior and routine are keys.  For example, if they are 14 and hanging out with a 28 year old...that's a sign.

Long Working Hours for New Moms, Retired Moms and Simply Tired Moms? Enough!

Sometimes we just can't work the long hours at various times of our lives.  Those who are closest to us may have seen our moods fluctuate, our bodies do some interesting things, and most of all grow distant from them.  There was a time where 50 to 60 hours a week is what we did, but as we grow older, things change!

Making your family and close friends understand your plight can be a losing battle when they lack understanding and have grown to rely on you to meet their financial needs.  The key here is not to persuade them into believing how tired your mind and body are, but to simply do what you can handle for the time being.  In order to do that, you will gradually spend less money and time on them.  Actions always speak louder than words!  You jump right into your plan after you communicated, "I just can't do what I used to do...so here is the new plan."

Selfish people will find fault, have their temper tantrums, and may not like you very much Mom, so get ready!  But you are weary and stressed out from being all things to everyone.  Is your health worth risking to put a smile on a nonchalant spouse or child's face?  There is nothing you can do once in the grave, so they might as well learn how to get along without you.

Maybe your situation isn't that bad now, but it is headed that way.  You feel something a bit different inside and you can't explain it.  You may have to schedule a doctor's appointment sooner rather than later.  In the meantime, you can do the following when it comes to work:

1)  Be creative in getting tasks done and don't do so many at a time.  Leave the multi-tasking for the young and the stronger.  Delegate responsibilities!

2)  As you start to notice you are getting better, approach your employer about a split-share program.  Simply put, you would like to share your 40 hour shift with a fellow unemployed mother.  This way you are not working eight hours a day, but four.  You can also mention making your current role part-time if there is often not a lot to do or you can finish your work at home.  If your employer doesn't think your suggestions are reasonable, start looking for true part-time employment.  Too many companies start off giving part-time hours for little pay only to turn you into full-time when someone leaves.  Remember your health is more important than long hours and more pay!

3)  Find out if your partner is willing to make extra money working part-time on weekends.

4)  Children 15 years and up can work.  Encourage them to make their own money on or offline.  Stop paying for their extracurricular activities and putting away for college.  Talk with a relative who might be able to help with their college savings account.

5)  If you find out that your health is failing fast, ask about home care or what health plans are offered that you can be able to stay at the hospital for awhile.  Too often ill patients rush to get back home before they are well only to have more complications.  Being at home to recover with family isn't always the best option.

6) Evaluate your debits and credits and find out how you can reduce some costly expenses.  Work smarter not harder!  You can check out a video I created on varied income streams.

7)  If you have a personal faith, pray!  Ask others to pray for you as well.  You can check out my playlist on YouTube with prayers.

Consider your health comes before wealth this new year!

Nicholl McGuire is the author of Spiritual Poems by Nicholl and other books.  She is also the owner of this blog.

Teaching My Son to Be Responsible with His Scooter

So I gave my son a simple task, I asked,"Could you please go get the mail?"  Without hesitation he said, "Yes."  Before long he was out the door.  As I looked out the window, the snowflakes began to fall a bit faster.  There was snow covered everywhere.  The night before we had about three inches and in other areas about seven.  While he was out, I hadn't noticed, but something was missing from that large open space next to the kitchen counter.

I proceeded to cook dinner and didn't think much about his trip to the mailbox which is down a long driveway and a short walk around the corner.  I figured he walked.  The snow continued to fall while I boiled rice and watched the meatloaf in the stove.  As my thoughts about dinner carried me away, I heard a bump at the door as if something hit up against it.  I came to the door and there he was with snowflakes decorating the hood of his coat.  He was struggling to bring his electric scooter inside.  Shocked, I say, "You brought your scooter out in the snow!  It's electric!  What were you thinking?"  The stainless steel plate was covered with snow.  He responded disappointedly, "It doesn't work in the snow."  Well of course it wouldn't!

My son looked upset and I wasn't happy because he just got it for his birthday a few weeks ago.  He talked about getting that scooter on and off for almost a year and there it was covered with snow that was melting fast!  Well, I ran into the kitchen and grabbed paper towels while I instructed him to brush the snow off out onto the patio.  All the while I'm thinking, "This scooter better work after we dry it off."  He worked quickly taking great care to dry it off.  After spending about 15 minutes or more, he says, "Well at least the front wheel isn't dirty."  I respond, "Yeah, okay.  Don't do that again.  It wasn't built for the snow." Grateful that it was still working, he assured me he wouldn't.

I thought the timing was interesting, because one of our partners has a website dedicated to scooters.  Take a look at the top right corner of your screen if you are reading this on your computer.  Maybe your child is bugging you about a scooter or did something stupid and now it doesn't work.  There has been quite a bit of talk recently in our household about scooters.  One of my older sons wants one but those we see in local department stores are for children weighing less than 120 pounds.  In the future, we plan to get him one too.

Investing in any thing of quality for a child can be worthwhile when he or she is old enough to take care of them.  However, when they act irresponsibly, it tends to make you think twice.  Lucky for my son, his scooter is okay and needless to say he is careful not to take it out in inclement weather.

Check out our partner's site Pro Scooters and enjoy your purchase!