Baby What!? - 1999
Oh no, so not ready! I am 24 but feel like I'm 18! I have plans--lots of them! This can't be happening. God do something, you know I'm not ready! I didn't want to have a baby right now and not with this guy--he was supposed to be a friend--(sigh).
Baby Why? - 2000
Yes, why? What was I thinking isn't this the guy--my so-called friend--who I caught creeping (he had been cheating and hiding his pagers at the time--yeah I just dated myself). So why did I use the calendar method again!? I married him, I really married this guy, so this is supposed to make things alright? Still pregnant...still settling.
Baby When? - 2006
Newly divorced, new life, new guy. Uh oh, I think I remember when. I felt odd that night after our love-making. Something was different, I felt like I didn't like him much afterward. Yep, I remember when (oh boy!) That reaction turned into "not now" I really didn't feel like I knew my new boyfriend that well. Besides, I met him on the Internet. Were we ever going to take that trip we both planned? Nope. I think I feel sick. Baby two was supposed to be the last one--stupid doctor knew I was out of it when he asked me about getting my tubes tied--he said a long name--hell, I didn't know what he was saying! Of course I would have said yes! I am a bit angry...what's up with the red tape...Baby three was supposed to be it--but they couldn't perform the fallopian tube removal surgery that August, so back into my room I went, crying--money, money (sigh). I can feel it, another baby in my future--I don't want a daughter, God.
How? - 2007
April 2007 expect to deliver baby December 2007, you gotta be kidding! God we had this talk already. Seriously, how? I took 28 birth control pills for 28 days and was on my way to the CVS to get my refill when I noticed my stomach was a little puffier than usual. Doctor said he put me on a low dose birth control pill since I was breast-feeding and I forgot about back up protection (sigh). Dad's reaction (same father of "When?"), attitude, lots of attitude. The next nine months was interesting to say the least--had last baby successfully. Thank God, future pregnancy complications if I don't get surgery, says nurse--yes! Fallopian removal surgery a success. I told you I didn't want anymore children. Four sons is enough, thank you Jesus!
Nicholl
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